Sharing emotions is so gross and embarrassing. I don’t want to feel weak or small. But I do. I feel vulnerable and desperate. I feel disgusting. If I write it in passive tense and maybe I can stomach the words on the page. If I am not the subject maybe it’s okay to say it.... Continue Reading →
Wholesome Words from a Mending Heart
Dating, especially in the post Covid world era, is stressful and weird, presenting itself with what seems, at least to me, to be the most difficult terrain I’ve ever had to traverse. I’ve come to realize that the dating app scene can seem mindless, oftentimes feeling aimless, debilitating, and criminally objectifying. In a lot of... Continue Reading →
For my Love (future)
I wanted to have a variety of mediums for this project, so I made a playlist! This is just a cute little playlist with a pretty self explanatory title. The songs aren't in any particular order so feel free to skip around. Enjoy 🙂 https://open.spotify.com/playlist/22HcWABVGW1bxQ6OKdZR3u?si=d9b91e66943a4508
Intimacy in Pink
I wrote this poem about the kind of intimacy I want to experience with the right person. Initially it was just a poem and then I decided to make it into a video! Which admittedly was pretty difficult. I was inspired by a tiktok trend where people described their significant others as various things like... Continue Reading →
Dodgeball
What love means Slash Is to you That’s the question people ask themselves I think I finally get it What it means to hold on To lose I finally think I get what it means to bruise To grow old See loved ones do drugs Get off them But the stories in my head retold... Continue Reading →
Quarter Love Crisis
Rihanna said, "I've loved and I’ve lost.” back in 2012 and I didn’t know what it meant. I was only a teenager in high school. I went on my first date in college at the age of 19. That date turned into another and another and we went 9 months strong including 6 months of... Continue Reading →
Love & Dates
I want to go on a date. I’ve never been on a date before. To be completely honest, I’ve never wanted to go on a date before. Sometimes, when I mention this to someone, they seem surprised. Perhaps I seem a little old to have never been on a date, or in a relationship, or... Continue Reading →
Blossoming
This was my first date with my ex. We lived near each other, though we had never met, or even seen each other. After we matched, we quickly grew fond of one another, and soon we were scheduling a date. However, there was a small problem: I was playing futsal and had to split the... Continue Reading →
Accidentally in Love
I’ve walked this life with my head in the clouds, eyes in a book, or a problem to resolve; a figment of imagination, a part of reality, or a little bit of both I may never know. The darkness of the world felt distant, drumming, theory of chaos. Life doesn’t always have the structure that... Continue Reading →
A World Apart (magazine / collage)
Artwork by Michaela Foster, artist Close up of the left side Close up of the right side
The Philosophy of Aarel 