2/28/25
Sharing emotions is so gross and embarrassing. I don’t want to feel weak or small. But I do. I feel vulnerable and desperate. I feel disgusting. If I write it in passive tense and maybe I can stomach the words on the page. If I am not the subject maybe it’s okay to say it.…
volte para mim
unedited and written hastily. hopefully you see it Missing you is a pit in my stomach It’s a foot on my chest And quick cry in the work bathroom It’s you and me on my couch Your shoes next to mine The nighttime air It’s memories shared and possibilities lost It’s a frown when no…
My Fibroid Journey
My Fibroid Journey Let’s start with the very beginning. I have uterine issues, which I jokingly call “my affliction of the womb”. In February of 2021 my gynecologist propped me open with the medical jaws of life and forced a copper IUD through my cervix and into my uterus. It feels as violent as it…
breaking my silence
I would like to preface this by saying it won’t be as beautifully typed as I normally try because I’m typing this into the notes app on my phone. I don’t feel like I get to live in words anymore. College was full of reading and learning and discussing; laughing and talking and singing. Now…
Wholesome Words from a Mending Heart
Dating, especially in the post Covid world era, is stressful and weird, presenting itself with what seems, at least to me, to be the most difficult terrain I’ve ever had to traverse. I’ve come to realize that the dating app scene can seem mindless, oftentimes feeling aimless, debilitating, and criminally objectifying. In a lot of…
For my Love (future)
I wanted to have a variety of mediums for this project, so I made a playlist! This is just a cute little playlist with a pretty self explanatory title. The songs aren’t in any particular order so feel free to skip around. Enjoy 🙂
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A continuous cycle I’m in denial I base my self worth on my profile And the likes I receive and the messages I get. I think I finally found a way to forget- You. This is new to me I confuse attention with intention How many tears must I shed before I learn my lesson?…
Intimacy in Pink
I wrote this poem about the kind of intimacy I want to experience with the right person. Initially it was just a poem and then I decided to make it into a video! Which admittedly was pretty difficult. I was inspired by a tiktok trend where people described their significant others as various things like…
Dodgeball
What love means Slash Is to you That’s the question people ask themselves I think I finally get it What it means to hold on To lose I finally think I get what it means to bruise To grow old See loved ones do drugs Get off them But the stories in my head retold…
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