unedited and written hastily. hopefully you see it
Missing you is a pit in my stomach
It’s a foot on my chest
And quick cry in the work bathroom
It’s you and me on my couch
Your shoes next to mine
The nighttime air
It’s memories shared and possibilities lost
It’s a frown when no one’s looking
It’s not wanting to be at home because that’s where we spent most of our time together
It’s aching to hear your voice at the end of the day
It’s wondering how your family is doing
It’s wishing you were there on my birthday
It’s not wanting to go to the gym bc it reminds me of you
Its crying on my couch because you’re not coming over
It’s being angry at the situation
It’s wishing you knew I’d never hurt you the way others did
It’s hoping you come back when the timing is right, whether you want me to hope that or not
It’s hoping you read this
Who could’ve known your absence from my life would be a gut punch like this?
The Philosophy of Aarel 
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