Dodgeball

What love means 
Slash 
Is to you

That’s the question people ask themselves
I think I finally get it
What it means to hold on
To lose 

I finally think I get what it means to bruise
To grow old
See loved ones do drugs
Get off them 
But the stories in my head retold

I’m tired of the conditions of love
It’s a short life when you think about it
It’s like love someone or be an android

My motto used to be life 2 short
But that was before life turned into a horror
Stories and movies
I wish I could go back to when we got along

Love will drag you through a field of daisies 
Just to drop you off into a waterfall
With big rocks at the bottom

I got big problems 
But love can out run every one of them 
My truth like love
Something you can’t see 
Writing this song 
I think I woke out of my fatigue

But I won’t forget 
Your love for your life 
Makes me not want to love myself 
It’s fucked up 
But it’s been the truth at times
I’m surprised you can’t tell 

Rinsed myself of love
And clung to it like it’s the only thing above 
My eyesight and his climate 

I run it back 
But I start to hear something 
A distant echo of someone I used to be
Held compassion 
Different attention
Spanned relationships 
Until I didn’t want to shake
No more hands 

Sometimes I’ve felt better alone 
With a beer can
And a bowl and a  mean tv show 
I mean 
Haven’t you ever seen self love on the low

I run it back again
And know I have to grow
I have to peel back the conditions 
That I’ve formed 
My hearts always torn
I think it’s time to be reborn

And it all sounds boring
But it’s the way to go
Because we all go 

– Calahan’s Cauldron